wishing i had kept recording my thoughts

I am looking back on all that has happened and now really wish I had continued to keep a record of what I have been thinking and feeling all along.

Well, the truth is, I have, but much of it felt too private to reveal. It may be that this is the way I participate in keeping the present dynamics in place.

I feel like I have been through a profound change.  This year, with the possible dissolution of my department, helped to dissolve the biggest chunks of my ego that remained.

What I see in myself now is that my destiny is to be a healer...or maybe to liberate people to their own whole state. I feel that I am to serve others in this way.

My greatest challenge in this life is simply to be present.

The unintended consequences of success

I don't know if I ever really considered what "success" would look like beyond "glorious." I find that I now understand that transforming STEM education system means that I will experience a transformation, as the system is IN me.